The open window to my soul the lost road.
INTRODUCTION “I am ready to open my window and let the truth out.”
This is a true story of a person who has lived life with many personalities. Who has lived through the turmoil between the opposing forces within herself of good and evil. Who has had daily debates between her higher self and the "reactive mind?”
"I could see what I was doing, for a long time. All the gifts that had been given to me by the Universe and were precious, because I created them during my past existence. These, I was suppressing, while keeping with admiration and respect, the values and standards that "belonged" to others. This made me feel distressed, unhappy and separated from my higher self. I felt cheated and was miserable. My weakness and fear of speaking up was there and was stopping my progress. That progress of living life from my strengths. My biggest desire was to become AUTHENTIC. Yet I thought I could become it without the discipline and determination needed to do so.
Thank goodness my inner self had other plans for my life, so I decided to give it my undivided attention and get the job done. The job of reaching the highest point of living in the image of God rather than the mind. That life of being the real me at all times without fears, prejudices and other impediments, such as (MADNESS) and self judgment. The life that knows how to include the inner voice which I call Higher Self/Soul. I had everything I needed in life. I was surrounded by beauty, but not the beauty of my soul.
My window to my soul was closed.
All these years I thought I was an open window through which people could look inside and really see who I was. How wrong I was! I was living life on the surface creating small talk and just barely touching the outer layer of the soul. I had not even started to look, deep within myself so as to find all the treasures that were available to me.
In a flash as I said these words my whole life passed through my mind's eye, and I knew immediately something needed to be done. Fear took over my body, pain and stubbornness were present. My mind still wanted to be in charge of my life; it wanted to do what it wanted, rather than what it was intended to be. That is the reason why my "window was closed".
My mind kept saying "Why show people who you are? That way you will be naked! People will see all you have, even the handicap of not being able to speak your mind and give a logical sentence. By doing so, you will have no defenses. You will be seen as pure light and only the truth will pour out of you at all times. You will be love, kindness and totally submissive to the beauty of your soul.”
I replied, “I WANT ALL OF THIS, I want every cell in my body to have no rebellion. I want to take this step forward into eternal life. The life that is meant for me. The life that looks bad in other peoples eyes because it is different. The life that will create pleasure, satisfaction, joy and love in my life because it belongs to me alone and no one else’s…. Can you understand this? Therefore go away and leave me alone to accomplish this purpose of my life. I am ready to open my window and let the truth out! I am strong enough to make it across the bridge of eternal life to the side where goodness and LOVE abides. Where my individuality will be part of my daily life and be accepted as non-madness. Then I will be able to create magic for myself and others.
My mind continued to fight my inner voice. But as the intention got stronger and stronger in the commitment of clearing the obstacles that had accumulated inside myself, from the day I was born, the ego mind abandoned itself to the will of the SOUL.
Come with me and expand your horizons for God does not make JUNK, only experiences for growth. We are perfect and then we loose ourselves in the magnitude that society has created.
Keep in mind it is not our responsibility to judge whether a man be right or wrong in his beliefs, right or wrong in his way of life. If we are as occupied as we can be with our own understanding and development, we will have no time for criticism of others. God created nothing except that which is perfect and is ever moving to being perfect. It is up to each individual to appreciate the gifts that are personal and so dear to each one of us.
We are Energy and to feel alive, look and be alive,
we need to taste the soul.
Cradle the body and shatter the mind's weak structures.
For then the soul can live the beauty
of his/her eternal power that is greater than the entire World we live in.
All rights reserved to the words on this page. Written in 1994.
This is a true story of a person who has lived life with many personalities. Who has lived through the turmoil between the opposing forces within herself of good and evil. Who has had daily debates between her higher self and the "reactive mind?”
"I could see what I was doing, for a long time. All the gifts that had been given to me by the Universe and were precious, because I created them during my past existence. These, I was suppressing, while keeping with admiration and respect, the values and standards that "belonged" to others. This made me feel distressed, unhappy and separated from my higher self. I felt cheated and was miserable. My weakness and fear of speaking up was there and was stopping my progress. That progress of living life from my strengths. My biggest desire was to become AUTHENTIC. Yet I thought I could become it without the discipline and determination needed to do so.
Thank goodness my inner self had other plans for my life, so I decided to give it my undivided attention and get the job done. The job of reaching the highest point of living in the image of God rather than the mind. That life of being the real me at all times without fears, prejudices and other impediments, such as (MADNESS) and self judgment. The life that knows how to include the inner voice which I call Higher Self/Soul. I had everything I needed in life. I was surrounded by beauty, but not the beauty of my soul.
My window to my soul was closed.
All these years I thought I was an open window through which people could look inside and really see who I was. How wrong I was! I was living life on the surface creating small talk and just barely touching the outer layer of the soul. I had not even started to look, deep within myself so as to find all the treasures that were available to me.
In a flash as I said these words my whole life passed through my mind's eye, and I knew immediately something needed to be done. Fear took over my body, pain and stubbornness were present. My mind still wanted to be in charge of my life; it wanted to do what it wanted, rather than what it was intended to be. That is the reason why my "window was closed".
My mind kept saying "Why show people who you are? That way you will be naked! People will see all you have, even the handicap of not being able to speak your mind and give a logical sentence. By doing so, you will have no defenses. You will be seen as pure light and only the truth will pour out of you at all times. You will be love, kindness and totally submissive to the beauty of your soul.”
I replied, “I WANT ALL OF THIS, I want every cell in my body to have no rebellion. I want to take this step forward into eternal life. The life that is meant for me. The life that looks bad in other peoples eyes because it is different. The life that will create pleasure, satisfaction, joy and love in my life because it belongs to me alone and no one else’s…. Can you understand this? Therefore go away and leave me alone to accomplish this purpose of my life. I am ready to open my window and let the truth out! I am strong enough to make it across the bridge of eternal life to the side where goodness and LOVE abides. Where my individuality will be part of my daily life and be accepted as non-madness. Then I will be able to create magic for myself and others.
My mind continued to fight my inner voice. But as the intention got stronger and stronger in the commitment of clearing the obstacles that had accumulated inside myself, from the day I was born, the ego mind abandoned itself to the will of the SOUL.
Come with me and expand your horizons for God does not make JUNK, only experiences for growth. We are perfect and then we loose ourselves in the magnitude that society has created.
Keep in mind it is not our responsibility to judge whether a man be right or wrong in his beliefs, right or wrong in his way of life. If we are as occupied as we can be with our own understanding and development, we will have no time for criticism of others. God created nothing except that which is perfect and is ever moving to being perfect. It is up to each individual to appreciate the gifts that are personal and so dear to each one of us.
We are Energy and to feel alive, look and be alive,
we need to taste the soul.
Cradle the body and shatter the mind's weak structures.
For then the soul can live the beauty
of his/her eternal power that is greater than the entire World we live in.
All rights reserved to the words on this page. Written in 1994.
The open window to my soul the inner sanctuary
SMALL PIECE FROM THE SECOND BOOK
So let us see whether there is a main purpose for this book?
1. My purpose is to Show the reader a clear feeling of how hard it is for a child or a teenager to find its own direction when the parent has no idea about the child’s purpose.
The child is like a tree the bigger it is the harder it will be for it to survive in a different ground when transplanted. During its life he needs fertile soil at all times, the correct guidance and understanding.
It is one thing to travel for experience and growth, and another to begin a new life in a country with laws, culture, vegetation, language and mentality different from the one the soul chose.
When the child is born it knows and remembers why he has come upon this planet, therefore the mission of the parent is to acknowledge such precious gifts and help it reach such goals.
2. The writing of this book was spontaneous and I was inspired motivated to do so for my sake. I wanted to keep a journal. My mind continuously suggested that "I WAS NOT GOOD ENOUGH" to do such adventure. Each day I dedicated time to this task of diligence and determination.
The belief, of not being good enough was drummed into my mind, by family members and others, right from the early age of five.
3. I continued writing even while the writings made no sense. Only to find that I also constantly criticised the words I wrote and hated their guts. The feeling connected to this failure continued.
Alessandra Hart
So let us see whether there is a main purpose for this book?
1. My purpose is to Show the reader a clear feeling of how hard it is for a child or a teenager to find its own direction when the parent has no idea about the child’s purpose.
The child is like a tree the bigger it is the harder it will be for it to survive in a different ground when transplanted. During its life he needs fertile soil at all times, the correct guidance and understanding.
It is one thing to travel for experience and growth, and another to begin a new life in a country with laws, culture, vegetation, language and mentality different from the one the soul chose.
When the child is born it knows and remembers why he has come upon this planet, therefore the mission of the parent is to acknowledge such precious gifts and help it reach such goals.
2. The writing of this book was spontaneous and I was inspired motivated to do so for my sake. I wanted to keep a journal. My mind continuously suggested that "I WAS NOT GOOD ENOUGH" to do such adventure. Each day I dedicated time to this task of diligence and determination.
The belief, of not being good enough was drummed into my mind, by family members and others, right from the early age of five.
3. I continued writing even while the writings made no sense. Only to find that I also constantly criticised the words I wrote and hated their guts. The feeling connected to this failure continued.
Alessandra Hart
The open window to my soul you are not alone
Cynthia continues her journey spreading love by giving the people the tools of how to speak to angels and how to clear charge or blocks with the method of Self analysis.
In this book we have episode after episode that people have experienced while Cynthia was helping them bring the emotions to the surface. Here is just one small article from the book.
In this book we have episode after episode that people have experienced while Cynthia was helping them bring the emotions to the surface. Here is just one small article from the book.
Self analysis by a woman.
Good morning creator of me and all things.
This morning I noticed that charge is present within myself regarding "fear of success". The pain hurts so much and the tears are rolling down, without stopping. It feels like being in an abyss of alones, where the soul is strong but the mind has no idea how to carry out the process. It really hurts; my Universal intelligence knows the process. This kind of intelligence is a freeing intelligence that is connected to the energy of the cosmos and the personal soul. It knows what to do in order to stop the tears and the pain. The ego mind is the hurt part of me, I can see that, and I can see how the tears continue to roll down, in conjunction to the ego. The ego feels sorry for itself, for having "failed" in giving the world the words that God and my higher self, and the universal mind were dictating. These words of wisdom, that reflected the purpose of my mission, were magical. Then the ego mind or computer of my brain would come in destroying and critizasing the creation of the higher energies.
Now here I am speaking to you kind creator, about of my infidelity and refusal of acceptance of the soul. How can this be possible? Is it because of the schooling system and the parents, the religions that my small persona has not learnt about who the true me is?
I ask YOU, for forgiveness towards my ignorance, yet I know 100% that a small part of me knew better. It knew the reality of which I truly was; therefore the game that the ego was playing was only a cover up for the truth. As I tune into my feeling this very moment I can feel a calmness that was not there when I started this letter. Now I can see a white light around my body. Does this mean that the power of the ego mind has diminished?
"Yes" that is how it works, anytime that you confront the situation head on without fear; you create a small shift within yourself. That shift then allows more pure energy to enter your body." Replies the Creator.
Thank you creator, says the patient then she continues talking.
"I can feel that another part from the "fear of success" is presenting itself, deeper than the one we just deed."
"Well then let us go deeper"
"I can see a purple heart that is floating around the heart chakra like a symbol. It feels as if it has a message for me." She expresses
"Go ahead and ask the Purple Heart what the message is" replies the Creator.
Very well, purple heart what is your message?
"I have been hurt by many people while growing up; those people did not know what they were doing to me, because they were being themselves as society had made them. You my dear were a soul, a beautiful soul that God had sent here for a specific purpose. You were adorable, so innocent, and pure of heart and like a small butterfly jumping around free from confusion, malice or any other negative thoughts. I would look at you and see an angel dressed in white that matched your internal aura. Then the actions and words of others started putting black spots on your mind. The words were negative words that became imprinted on your ego mind. The mind that humans, that have forgotten where they came from and why they are here, created. How are you feeling right now?" asked the Purple Heart.
"I am feeling a little more relaxed and accepting of the real truth. There is still a fear inside my body, do you know why?" she asked.
"Let me see, in which part of your body this energy has landed. I can see the sky with white clouds and you are walking along the road, you are eight years old, when a man with a dark cloak is coming towards you. You fearfully, move aside shrinking like a ball of hay. He grabs you by the arm and you scream. At this moment the fear imbedded itself inside you. Now that fear grows as he drags you towards a dungeon. More fear is added to the existing fear. This is the fear that now you are experiencing. If you want I can dissolve the fear by removing the episode from your mind, would you like that?"
The child inside the woman answers "yes."
This is how my fear of success was handled on that day by the training in self analyses that we have learnt from you Cynthia.
This is my testimonial of what happened.
Annonimous
Good morning creator of me and all things.
This morning I noticed that charge is present within myself regarding "fear of success". The pain hurts so much and the tears are rolling down, without stopping. It feels like being in an abyss of alones, where the soul is strong but the mind has no idea how to carry out the process. It really hurts; my Universal intelligence knows the process. This kind of intelligence is a freeing intelligence that is connected to the energy of the cosmos and the personal soul. It knows what to do in order to stop the tears and the pain. The ego mind is the hurt part of me, I can see that, and I can see how the tears continue to roll down, in conjunction to the ego. The ego feels sorry for itself, for having "failed" in giving the world the words that God and my higher self, and the universal mind were dictating. These words of wisdom, that reflected the purpose of my mission, were magical. Then the ego mind or computer of my brain would come in destroying and critizasing the creation of the higher energies.
Now here I am speaking to you kind creator, about of my infidelity and refusal of acceptance of the soul. How can this be possible? Is it because of the schooling system and the parents, the religions that my small persona has not learnt about who the true me is?
I ask YOU, for forgiveness towards my ignorance, yet I know 100% that a small part of me knew better. It knew the reality of which I truly was; therefore the game that the ego was playing was only a cover up for the truth. As I tune into my feeling this very moment I can feel a calmness that was not there when I started this letter. Now I can see a white light around my body. Does this mean that the power of the ego mind has diminished?
"Yes" that is how it works, anytime that you confront the situation head on without fear; you create a small shift within yourself. That shift then allows more pure energy to enter your body." Replies the Creator.
Thank you creator, says the patient then she continues talking.
"I can feel that another part from the "fear of success" is presenting itself, deeper than the one we just deed."
"Well then let us go deeper"
"I can see a purple heart that is floating around the heart chakra like a symbol. It feels as if it has a message for me." She expresses
"Go ahead and ask the Purple Heart what the message is" replies the Creator.
Very well, purple heart what is your message?
"I have been hurt by many people while growing up; those people did not know what they were doing to me, because they were being themselves as society had made them. You my dear were a soul, a beautiful soul that God had sent here for a specific purpose. You were adorable, so innocent, and pure of heart and like a small butterfly jumping around free from confusion, malice or any other negative thoughts. I would look at you and see an angel dressed in white that matched your internal aura. Then the actions and words of others started putting black spots on your mind. The words were negative words that became imprinted on your ego mind. The mind that humans, that have forgotten where they came from and why they are here, created. How are you feeling right now?" asked the Purple Heart.
"I am feeling a little more relaxed and accepting of the real truth. There is still a fear inside my body, do you know why?" she asked.
"Let me see, in which part of your body this energy has landed. I can see the sky with white clouds and you are walking along the road, you are eight years old, when a man with a dark cloak is coming towards you. You fearfully, move aside shrinking like a ball of hay. He grabs you by the arm and you scream. At this moment the fear imbedded itself inside you. Now that fear grows as he drags you towards a dungeon. More fear is added to the existing fear. This is the fear that now you are experiencing. If you want I can dissolve the fear by removing the episode from your mind, would you like that?"
The child inside the woman answers "yes."
This is how my fear of success was handled on that day by the training in self analyses that we have learnt from you Cynthia.
This is my testimonial of what happened.
Annonimous
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