I am writing down my thoughts. All my life I have been afraid of my father. I idolized him so much. The only thing I was capable of doing was- sulking when hurt, running away, withdrawing within myself and becoming totally afraid of him. He was a gentle creature, that became extremely violent when drunk or provoked. I loved him so much yet I feared him. He loved me yet refused to listen and acknowledge my opinion. He was such a wonderful man.
He was a provider for the family. He was doing his own thing without realizing the stress he was putting the family under.
How can I stop all the patterns that are connected to the way my father was? I realize parental upbringing rubs off onto the kids.
How many things did I copy from my dad?
Now is the perfect time for clearing out unwanted " baggage" from past experiences.
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Here we are sharing the work I wrote a long time ago, when the process of clearing out the accumulated "stuff" started. The books, poems and words remained in the computer, for a long time waiting to be shared with the world.